50+ years of marriage and my grandpas passing in July inspired the most beautiful poetry from my grandma.
she's painting portraits of them together too... and of sceneries in Guyana that they explored together... and she's 79! i'm so inspired and proud.
---Me: how can i have hate for certain people when so many people are the reason i'm here?
Grandma: god don't hate anyone. god is love.
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Grandma: ow, don't take my hands- they look horrid!
Me: they're beautiful.
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Grandma: you're the only one that takes interest in these things i do because you're airy-fairy like me.
Me: please make sure you tell people you want this published cause i can already see the fights when you're gone.
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Xwell's post made me think 'damn, is my ish this long? cause if so, this is too damn long to read'........:(
since every emotion other than love is temporary + im too sensitive to deal with people not understanding that, i feel like scrapping every un-loving track i have and just putting out music about love, relationships etc. Xwell i know youre not going to like this... i already tried to convince him before. he doesnt understand that im going to have to deal with the repercussions of the emotions i express ALONE. plus, i cant have the 'F em' mentality no matter how hard i try... at the end of the day, im a woman. i'm built differently and i wouldn't have it any other way. what else what else... taking on worldly causes is honourable, but hurt people will kill you if you love them, so feed the poor, shelter the homeless, and nurture the sick from a distance. with money.
new plan: only release positive/non-vengeful songs, get a mask like MF Doom, stay behind the scenes like Sade
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old plan: meet my husband, move to an island, live as farmers, have 12 children (JKLV FC + 1 sub)
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happiness!
since every emotion other than love is temporary + im too sensitive to deal with people not understanding that, i feel like scrapping every un-loving track i have and just putting out music about love, relationships etc. Xwell i know youre not going to like this... i already tried to convince him before. he doesnt understand that im going to have to deal with the repercussions of the emotions i express ALONE. plus, i cant have the 'F em' mentality no matter how hard i try... at the end of the day, im a woman. i'm built differently and i wouldn't have it any other way. what else what else... taking on worldly causes is honourable, but hurt people will kill you if you love them, so feed the poor, shelter the homeless, and nurture the sick from a distance. with money.
new plan: only release positive/non-vengeful songs, get a mask like MF Doom, stay behind the scenes like Sade
+
old plan: meet my husband, move to an island, live as farmers, have 12 children (JKLV FC + 1 sub)
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happiness!
i think it's more than possible if i just have a remote island studio and a jet.
PS. i didn't get the job- the second interview was on a street called Mars at his natural pet food plant (haha, i found that funny). he said he was impresssed by my passion and determination, but someone else had more applicable skills. now i'm in debt for two 407 trips for going to the two of his interviews. robbery vs. work at mcdonald's? prison time vs. humility time?
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